Tanya Roycraft

hate

I hate you!
I HATE YOU!
I      H  A  T   E       Y  O  U ! ! !

I know, 'hate' is a strong word,
but I truly HATE you!

I hate you because you're always with me.
I hate you because you rob me of life experiences.
I hate you because you zap me of energy.
I hate you because you break me down.
I hate you because you bring hate into my life.
I hate you. I simply hate you.

I hate you because I fear you...
and nobody should have to live with that fear.
I hate you because my dad fears you,
my loved ones fear you.
Oh my gosh, do I ever hate you for that.

I hate you because every time I seem to become content
knowing that you'll always be with me you show your ugliest side -
you just can't let me be content.
I HATE YOU!

I hate you because I cry
as I write about hating you,
as I try to rest my exhausted body and mind,
as I run through the streets of town -
I want to run screaming
at the top of my lungs
how much I HATE YOU...
but you've beaten me down
once again
and running is not an option right now.

Oh, but you just wait until I'm well again.
You'll see.
I will run with a vengeance,
a vengeance against YOU, MS!

I      H  A  T   E       Y  O  U ! ! !
I HATE YOU!
I hate you!
i hate you

Tanya Roycraft is an English teacher at a juvenile detention center in Michigan. An avid cyclist, she participated in the MS150, a 2-day 150 mile bike tour, for 10 years prior to being diagnosed with MS at 27. She proudly still participates and is always one of the top fundraisers.