Christine Parker
YOU WILL NEVER KNOW
I want to stand by you, he said
but i could not see him
hiding behind shadows
he reached out and
pushed me under
making sure i stayed down
his boot planted into my back
he ground me into the dirt
i thought that i screamed
as i felt myself break
but all i could hear was his laughter
you will never know
how much i love you, he said
he was wrong...i think i know now
Christine Parker has Multiple Sclerosis. At the
onset of some of the most severe symptoms (but prior to diagnosis) her husband,
in response to her growing limitations, began to subject her to extreme and
severe abuse. Her experiences have brought her an awareness of the stigma of
illness/disability and the correlation between disabilities and domestic abuse. The
poem was written a year ago on the date that was her second year anniversary
date of having fled the abuse. |